Life and all that

I know, you guys have missed me. I have been letting down so many people by not blogging as regularly as I used to!!

I can’t begin to explain the size of the whole that the death of my Grandfather left in my life. I have said many times on these pages what he meant to me and to my family, but until something like death happens… you don’t even realize how true that is. One day, I will talk about his last days but honestly I am just not ready to face that yet.

School… I haven’t touched much on school. I am having a blast. I had to re-evaluate my math ability and change from advanced statistics to beginning statistics… but honestly that was the best thing. I am loving my class and learning so much. I knew that I would love my philosophy class and I was right!!

Sickness… Eric was sick before Christmas when Grandad starting going downhill and he is still sick. He started out with a sinus infection that turned into the flu. He has now lost 18 pounds. He wanted to lose weight… but not that way.

Exercise…. Eric and I joined a gym. We got to go one time and then we got sick. We are really hoping to get back in the swing of things next week.

Baseball…. Jordan is signed up to play baseball. He skipped last year, but this year he is all about it. My brother, Jamie is going to be his coach. I am excited for them both.

Dad… my father is in a lot of pain. For those who don’t know he had a life changing motorcycle accident 10 years ago. A couple weeks ago, Dad flipped his electric wheelchair. He is at the doctor’s office today getting x-rays. I will keep you updated!!

Life… the kids are going to have to start seeing Jeff again. I know that it supervised, but I also know how much they don’t want to go. Katheryn… well, she pretty much hates him. Jordan, he is scared of him. Meg goes from wanting to see him to making me promise that she wont have to be alone with him. We were getting child support (for a couple months), but so far this month… nothing. I guess that is over for a while. It pretty much stinks because Katheryn was going to get new clothes for her upcoming band trip. I guess that is one more reason now that she will have to hate him. I really do hate that by the way… I don’t encourage the children to hate anyone.

Anyway, lunch is about over… I gotta get back to work!!

Busy week

I have had a busy week, but things seem to be calming down. Eric has had the flu, but is getting better. I can’t believe that he missed 5 days of work. I have never really known him to stay home from work let alone stay in bed for 5 days!!

Jordan is playing baseball this year. He skipped last year, but I am so proud of him making the decision to try again. My brother Jamie is going to be his coach!! Wish him luck!!

Back on track

As you know our Christmas was overshadowed by the death of my Grandfather, December 26, 2008. It has taken me a month to get back on track. I have been fighting depression this month. I have been cranky and I have been sad. This weekend, Eric and I went to Chattanooga to spend some quality time together. It didn’t go exactly as I had planned… but in the end I think that it turned out better.

We are closer than we have ever been. We finally talked through so many things that have been bothering both of us for months. Not things that made us have a troubled marriage by any means, but just “stuff”.

I went to bed last night at 6 p.m. and slept until almost ten this morning. I have been exhausted. I haven’t been sleeping well since Christmas. I feel better.

Eric and I decided to make a commitment to each other to exercise more this year. We went today and joined a gym. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a big exercise person. I actually hate it. I need to start working out. I need to lost 30 pounds. Eric feels the same about himself. We are promising ourselves and each other that this we will accomplish our goals. This will not only increase our health, but will also help us to be better parents.

I am tired, and I am heading to bed. Wish us luck tomorrow on Day 1 of this new adventure. I have no idea where to start!!